Johnny Manziel goes in-depth on why he contemplated suicide

Netflix is getting set to release a documentary on Texas A&M legend and former Cleveland Browns quarterback Johnny Manziel. It will be called Untold: Johnny Football. One of the things it’s going to touch on is his mental health and plans to kill himself.

Manziel made an appearance on the Pat McAfee Show. There, he opened up about contemplating suicide and what he told the documentary.

“That was the first time I had really told anybody outside my immediate family,” Johnny Manziel said. “So, to kind of sit down on camera and walk them through just kind of how the year went after the NFL.”

During his time in college, Manziel became known for his off-field behavior, including his partying habits. That reputation followed him into the NFL and when he struggled, things became difficult for him to manage. The Browns cut him and he went on a bender, with the intention of killing himself.

“You see it in the doc but as you get to Cleveland and you have all these expectations and everything’s on you and then it just doesn’t go any resemblance of the way that you anticipated it, the way you wanted it to, with a lot of things mixed in to get me to that point. So, I think it was almost like a pre-planned thing to get me to that point that I had to just go burn it down until you can’t no more. Then, take your life.”

Luckily, Johnny Manziel didn’t take his own life. He’s still here and he has plenty of gratitude for life today.

“And, for me, sitting back here six, seven, eight years now, you know, I sit here with more gratitude for every day. Gratitude towards the small things and was able to put life into a little bit different perspective after going through something like that because it was dark for me. It was even more so tough to just ride that all the way down from the top of the mountain top than it ever was riding to the top of that mountain the two years prior.”

Johnny Manziel currently plays for the FCF Zappers.

Johnny Manziel bought a gun to use on himself

In Untold: Johnny Football, Johnny Manziel explained that he bought a gun. His plan was to use it on himself at the end of a bender following his release from the Browns.

“I think I was just running from problems. It was probably a $5 million bender. Direct self-sabotage, trying to burn this thing down,” Manziel said.

“I had planned to do everything that I wanted to do at that point in my life. Spend as much money as I possibly could and then my plan was to take my life. Months prior, I went and bought a gun I knew I was going to use. I wanted to get as bad as humanly possible to where it made sense and it made it seem like an excuse and an out for me.”